I struggled for many years not knowing the difference between religion and God. I mean, I knew what I felt during worship and while praying. I knew God was real and present and spoke to me often. But then I was confused by all the ‘rules’ the church folk often spoke of. Like how women aren’t suppose to wear pants and it’s not right to wear jewelry and our hair / head must be covered while in worship. I was confused by the religious folk who memorized all the scriptures but had hate and jealousy in their hearts. They actually made me want to be in the world and not in God- if that’s what living for God meant. I mean I can go and on. That was the part that really confused me. I knew deep down inside that all of this had absolutely nothing to do with God.
God is simple. God is unconditional love and what I was feeling was not love.
The world has God trapped up in a box and this is why the ‘church’ (the people) are suffering and confused. I was one of them- so I know.
It took some time but God was awesome enough, as He’s always been, to send a man into my life to teach me about the true living God and about LOVE. My pastor (Boby Somers). He did so by opening up my heart to the Kingdom message:
Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and ALL these things will be added unto you -Matthew 6:33
The message that transformed my life in every aspect. All these years, the church spoke about serving God in order to get to Heaven…to paradise. And I swore they spoke more about getting there- then they did about experiencing God here on earth-while still alive. But what I needed at the time, while broken, confused, hurt, angry, in debt, depressed and ready to give up on God, was something more. I needed to discover what my purpose was and why I was here. I needed to heal. I needed to know what to do with all my pain. I needed to forgive. I needed joy, love and peace. I wanted a discipline to pattern my life by. What I was getting for so many years was NOT that at all. I was identifying myself with a denomination- NOT God. How could I represent God if I am identifying with something (religion) that has nothing to do with Him or who He is or even what He created. Identifying with God liberated me to live in the order He requires me to live in. In total freedom where I can function from a place of truth and purpose.
Religion promised me something that ‘it’ could never give me.
God promised me LIFE and He gave it to me; free from pain, confusion, drama, pain, depression and unforgiveness.
Through the word of God (the bible), I was able to completely transform my mindset. Through the kingdom message, I received peace of mind. I began to understand who I was because I knew Who’s I was. I am a King, therefore I am suppose to live like a king.
I received healing in areas of my life- I had no idea needed healing. I discovered my purpose through my pain and wanted nothing more then to spread His love and light in the world. Each and every day was and has been beautiful. Is it easy? Well, there are days that I don’t ‘feel’ so motivated but I’ve grown to understand that it’s not about my ‘feelings’ anymore. So I just keep on moving.
Kingdom living is LIFE. The Kingdom of God is not a place. It is within us. Each of us. When we live the way we ought to live, the same pattern that Jesus lived His life, all things will be added unto us.
When my life is not in order and when there is ‘drama’ happening around me, my spirit feels broken and uneasy. When things are not in Gods order in my life, mentally and emotionally…even physically, I’m a mess. You may not see it on the outside but inside I am not at peace. So I now know that I must always seek for His peace in my life and anything or anyone that compromises that, gots to go! I don’t seek for religion. I don’t follow a religion. I follow Christ. He is my idol. Can you imagine if we all strived to BE more like Him?? Ohh what a world this would be.
In Health and With Love, Lizzy